i really don't know what to post
all i know is that i miss you
every single day
and i need you
will you come back home?
long gone..
growing up is always part of life
sometimes you'll feel that a certain something
is the most important thing of your life
and you're so certain about it
i realised life isn't always that smooth going
no matter how positive you look at it
there'll be ups and downs
but true feelings are always those that stand by you
whether or not they are made
as clear as abc like saying "i care and love you"
every now and then
or just simple support, praying each and every moment
that you are okay
when i went outfield yesterday
i saw the SISPEC or rather now known as SCS cadets
i feel a sense of nostalgic feeling
like something i've been thru and done that
yes, shit has caught on with me in life
having suffered both internal, external
meat, heart and any other type of pain
i feel a sense of achievement that i got this far
but a little disappointed that i still
ain't with you till now
but rather you're with someone else
i told myself many a times its just
loving the right person at the wrong time
and not loving the wrong person at any time
its okay to see that sometimes,
i do smile from time to time
whenever things go my way
yes, i couldn't ask for more already
everything has been set into play
seeing 3 different ----------
when i was so madly into it
but those cadets made me realised something when it rained so heavily yesterday
that i almost forgotten that its the same scenario
i had when i was a cadet too.
at some point you feel like giving up
when your instructors scolding you
asking you to move even when every ounce of strength
is gone from your body
but you're still moving
your're still doing it
thats feeling and thats something real and true
straight from the heart
if somewhere somehow you're still around
i hope that that 3 year promise
will somehow linger
because somehow or rather
i'm moving even though its at the brick of limit
gambatte ne,
rekkusu-kun :D
army outfield really works wonder