9 strong cups + -
loud beat music
perfect crowd
that kept me going through the night
wasn't a very good afternoon and week i had last week
but was brighten up by my sispec mates
good to see them again
laughing and remembering all the shyt we've been thru
everyone is in their own posting
doing what they have to do
its good to have some meetups
headed down phuture/zouk with my officers and specs
for 2 people's ORD party
regular open drinks and bottles
like free..
indians really can drink
i cant. HAHAHA
they got me drinking and drinking and drinking
until i vomitted
didn't really want to drink till that state
but when they gave me
i just drink i don't know why
but i still can walk and stuff la
vomitted in the club
vomitted under my block
vomitted into my toilet bowl
finally get to sleep
but woken up by the sunlight
crap
ok now let me see 1 more thing i'll address to
to end this stupid fruity thing that is going on
thanks clara (winks) who is the other one
that sms-ed me and asked me about it
thanks for the concern (:
not much people in my life does that
but maybe cos i prefer to stand to my problems myself
and not ask ppl for help
independent? haha. don't know
anyway going on
come on yo! anata, dare desu ka?
a lil' high thinking already eh?
and a lil' low thinking about me eh?
you think i'm on sour grapes and stuff
you can wait (:
since the time you said 'i can't communicate with you'
friends? barely myself
ask arnd i'm not someone who wants an enemy more than a friend
i still cherish everyone i laughed with before
so i ignored but minimise conversations
showing me webcam pics
showing me webcam with whatever going on inside
(come on when you webcam i wasnt even looking =.=)
i was chatting my [her]
ya ya u can go on abt the sms i send and stuff
saying wad replacement and things
get that as an excuse
if you knew
1 1/2 years of [her]
1 year i've been trying to forget
1 year i told different ppl (guys and girls)
to help me
none can none succeded
90% told me the same as u do
and i myself knew it was true
i even told [her] the same thing
imagine all the things out?
what things are you talking about?
i'm just feeling damm funny about why show me stuff
which i don't even care
when you say online friend not even a real friend
uh-huh u said it. so why bother showing me these stuff =.=
i'm too lazy to go into who's right who's wrong
who's winning or who's losing
i'm a very straightforward person
things that i like i will say i like it
things that i don't like i will say in the face
thats how i roll
so lets wrap up these childish merry-go-round thing ya
you go do whatever you want
don't need to 'lex! check my facebook pictures! nice ma? hahahahahahahaha!'
or 'lex im bored! webcam!
no need for such thingys
and no need for sms like 'nights' (which i send to like 10 ppl)
even those long messages are group sms-es
[oh ya. how often i talk on msn to u now also. the most hi and nth more (:]
[so don't think i enjoy it also. like i said, 1 more friend is better than 1 more enemy]
you wanna waste your life away
go ahead. i got mine to live
i'll be taking away everything now ya
so good luck on whatever you got to do now
i still thank god for you coming into my life
though not long
for i believe that everything is fate (:
peace ya ^.^v
btw if i wanted, i have quite a few girls who could help me
still waiting for me to give up on
not that i like to boast abt this
but rather i don't like saying i have girls
make me sound so popular which im not
but there's only 1 girl that i'll be true with
thats [her] (:
to [her]:
1 1/2 long years long
im somewhat disappointed when i received that sms
how many times have i stood by you
at your darkest
and sms-es that you send
are always i'm in the wrong or some disheartening stuff
but i never got angry
i never wanted for i know you're this way
that has become part of my life to accept this reality
telling you don't give up on him myself
and the last sms you sent
that was all you can say to me?
its okay to me how you can hate me
because you should also know
the things you said to me
i never got angry on them even how bad you can put it
how u can scold me
i guess i should put things aside now
you've already choose not to tell me 'someone else'
and thats something i appreciate already
such small stuff is enough for me (:
i don't need big things to come out from you
little things made me smile
like when im in field camp
you sms me in the middle of the night
'nights'
just 1 little word is enough for the day
to show that my name is still there
i've thought over
love isn't just about needing or wanting to be with the person
little gestures are good enough
so i guess we should wrap it up too (:
thanks and sorry about yesterday
must be too drunk. (: your're still light years away from that special girl i seepeace out ppl!
and oh ya changed my first song on blog
to zheng fu by na ying
its a nice song and i keep singing! ^.^
ps2: thanks for blocking and deleting. i did that but msn didn't register =.=
