which are the truth and which are the lies?
not many people around me can tell me the truth
thinking of hurting feelings
or just simply don't mean what they say
its hard to find a trustworthy person i could say
for example. when one say i don't wanna do this thing anymore
before you know it. BAM!
the next day they did that thing
it never changes
from a year ago..
till even now
friends i made along the way
i can only say only 1 kept to almost all his words
and i know that friend will be a life-long friend of mine
now ask again. is it so hard to keep faith in your words
i often ponder am i such a guy too?
i thought back on my actions and i realised
when i say no, its so god-damm hard for me to say yes again
but why can't everyone do the same thing?
one moment they were like..
'oh no la.. im not going to change.. i will stay like this'
next moment, changed
haha. how fast the world can change
so which are the truth
and which are the lies
maybe i'm missing something out of my everyday life
but can't people just have more faith in themselves?
more perseverance and more strong to their words
yes yes.. somethings are hard to do
somethings are said to give you the motivation
in the end, its all up in the mind to do it
things like love and relationships can be understood
easy to love, hard to forget
but other things that are simple to keep promise
now it brings down to
i need to do it or i want to do it
this could go on for days..
just a little thing to ponder for everyone
take a little time out of our everyday lives and think
how many promises have you kept
and how many promises have you broken
starting from the least important to the most important
i did a reflection of myself
but thats for me to know and for you to find out!
haha!
i sent out a sms today to ???
well i could say the reply was neither good nor neither bad
at least it kept my heart at ease now
ain't that easy to say things out in a sms
really i hope christmas, new year, chinese new year, valentines
will not be that same old boring shit i have
for the past like what
20 years? haha
show me that you're trying
show me that you're thinking
show me that i'm worth it
k_l_y called me last night
and it really did surprised me a little
for a week she was like missing
i gave up talking or what so ever already
but was kinda happy she called
she asked if i was free for movie
but fate and luck always play me out
i have guard duty NOW (which is the day after yesterday which is today)
planned to go for it telling the g.comm that i'll book in
the following morning instead of the night
but oh well, too late when i told her
she went off drinking somewhere
haha! thats how it is for the past 1 year
fate just wasn't there
but ain't that important now
i feel if its really meant to be
it'll have all happened 1 month ago
for now, i'll be true to what i told
youyou really did make a change somewhere somehow since i know you
oh shyt! its near 8 now
back to duty~ shall be free in about 12 hours from now!
my leave till JANUARY 2010!
GOODBYE 2PDF! GOODBYE GUARD DUTIES! GOODBYE WORKING!
for 2 weeks...will you be unlike all the others i met?
certainly i hope you meant what you said