and i keep tell myself please nothing please dont please go please wrong please today... and i have 1/2 a feeling it wont go out to plan and its half true please dont go wrong all i want my birthday is what i planned please everything i already know im going to have a screwed up birthday let this be a mini celebration for me my 21st birthday just don't disappoint me anymore ya let me have something to cheer for my birthday something to remember will ya?
answer the call..... ):
i rant my rants @ 2:12 PM
WASSUP GUYS!!!!!!!! its halloween~~~~~~~~~~~~~ in singaporeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i've missed out last year halloween and so im not going to miss this year! im gonna dress up something cock! HAHAHAHA bought face paint today.. hmmm someone is gonna help me with my make up tml :p
im heading off to zouk YES! FINALLY! CLUBBING! AFTER SO SO SO LONG! i was wondering... halloween will be happier than my birthday why not celebrate my birthday while in club.. HAHAHA! special eh? hmmmm...
someone is gonna wear towel + shower cap for halloween and i wonder 'ZHEN DE MA!' hahahaha! lets see tomorrow! :p at least halloween falls near my birthday or this year is gonna be damm freaking sad! cant wait for tomorrow! hope everything goes fine plan B works out with no last minute changes lex will be the happiest person on earth (:
feel for you, feel for me, feel for us i cannot be the best couple but i will keep trying to be one (:
i rant my rants @ 3:44 AM
Thursday, October 29, 2009
and its exactly 1 week and i don't know what i want for my birthday gonna be somewhat disappointing i guess guard duty up too. ): kana on chalet day... need to find someone to change...
ARGH! NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT! SAVE ME!
ps. added 2 new songs to the playlist love it..
21st birthday.. will you be here?
i rant my rants @ 10:43 PM
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
and im so counting down to being 21 sex shop here i come? LOL =.= so counting down... its like... 9 more days. haha! yeah 'SO COUNTING DOWN' thinking that my birthday is ruined my 21st birthday don't know what to expect im neither here nor there this coming 21 and i thought this year i could be having lotsa fun taking off on my birthday but oh well... guess its impossible fuck it hope even i gotta spend my birthday with SAF on some ulu hill hope there's surprises to come hais... EMO~
why must everything hurt so much each time
i rant my rants @ 10:04 PM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
fuck it just what are you thinking! argh shan't say more ):
sometimes i really don't know what ya thinking everytime there's someone i feel so weird this feeling lasted so long just what is it hais... will you understand me? will you care for my feelings starting now? ):
stop pulling my hand!
i rant my rants @ 12:43 AM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
my birthday is round the corner (oh so i notice) kinda weird that though its my 21st birthday i feel just the same i used to have the feeling that i'm gonna have a big birthday bash for my 21st birthday but uh-huh, this year just ain't the same why you may ask thats because.... i'll be spending my whole birthday from 5am to maybe 12am the next day at kidney hill seeing reservist people firing GPMG haha! maybe thats my birthday present.. mini fireworks at night i really hope for surprises and everything this 21st birthday oh well, guess NS booked me this time oh did i mention? 06 Nov i'll still be at live range for another firing exercise dammit! so much for my 21st birthday
i guess god really doesn't want me to have a nice birthday every year i need love, i need hugs, i need kisses i need presents, i need surprises i need my 21st birthday! who will give it to me? ):
toodus! im still in camp and there's stand-by-bunk tomorrow how nice off to do some area cleaning f-mylife!
rahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i rant my rants @ 3:21 PM
its like the same old life all day long roses, prickles, clouds, stream just some random words that pop into my head. h-a-h-a im like living in a world of my own sometimes wondering where im heading at im currently neither here nor there you see
really want to boost up myself i thought of drummer [failed ):] i thought of studying hard! [failed ):] i thought of praying on good luck, toto, 4D [failed ):] seriously whats life taking me into now im rotting with my NS life now nothing much productive at all oh well, at least i get 900 a month for rotting
sometimes i really wonder when will i ever get to feel the same way as so long before that same old feeling regardless or time, money, anything its hard to come by i know but sometimes good things aren't always the right things i feel im more picky and choosy as years goes by i really hope this time i've made the right choice guess i'll be heading to bed toodios world we shall talk again ispeaklex, youspeaklex, wespeaklex, theyspeaklex, hespeaklex, shespeaklex lets all just speak lex shall we? nights!
show me that the girl i really want, is the girl i see in you
i rant my rants @ 1:52 AM
Friday, October 09, 2009
okok. its the weekend already and there's a dota rematch today haha! hope i can make it :p last night was supposed to book out and enjoy my stay at home but due to some '8% luck' that facebook gave me it really came true and i stayed in waiting for a safety rover to drive back so i can return 3 stores how nice ._.
went to some hari raya happy hour in camp after i settled the stores kinda cool to see everyone playing pool and table soccer drinking beer and chilling out headed off to bukit timah lan for some dota with chen lei and siong first 3 games was total disater engage 5 times, 4 times fail CMI! last match before we left i dulan click tinker straight hahahahaha! ended up 19 kills! NS scared of my tinker. lol! 3 moves + rearm + 1 more move GG strength hero is dead :p
oh well booking out later already faster settle things faster go off! rawr! okok! time to watch some naruto in camp ciaos guys!
to end things off, im addicted to this MV and song ya la ya la i know im late but due to once in a month posting i finally decided to post this vid :p
my heart shines like the moon drawing the love from the sun
i rant my rants @ 12:31 PM
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
youngters mindset currently: friends are not friends(strangers) until they meet (even when you have each other's email and phone number, just that never MEET before) which then makes me conclude - online friends are strangers - pen pal friends are strangers - 50% of the majority people's facebook/friendster/myspace/tagged are strangers
guess im getting older day by day wonder how people look at friends (i mean strangers nowadays) even strangers meet on the road thus are friends? hmmm.. something really to ponder
well i guess now expressions to my real friends (i met them real life before) will be hey tom! "i just met a new online stranger yesterday! she was way cool having piercing and everything! really thinks my new stranger has a good sense of style!"
sad how life changes now hard to find friends nowadays ya need to meet so many criteria hahahahahaha!
you laughed and smiled together conforted when down cheer each other when stranger wants to improve help stranger to solve problems but because strangers = never meet before you're under the "i've never considered you as a friend" lol. how nice this world is nowadays forever friends! i mean forever strangers! until we meet.... ):
anyway.......... going back outfield tomorrow nights world! wonder how many strangers still tune in here sad case
you came, you left, you've nothing i treasured or cherished (: waste of my time, strangers
to end things off, i think this vid is pretty cool ^.^
i rant my rants @ 2:12 AM
Friday, October 02, 2009
well its funny how to see how the world is changing maybe i'm really growing old everyday the younger people in this world really have a new direction at looking at things i'll update again. in lan now damm bored. rofl lazy to blog le. tataz!
miss you!
i rant my rants @ 8:21 PM
俺様
a lil' about me
Lex Ryuzaki is my name and i turn older on every 5th of november.
名前は龍崎 林です。毎年11月5日俺の誕生日です。
so please kindly jot down on your notebook.
ノートして下さい!
I enjoy music especially, drums.
音楽が好き、ドラムもっと好き。
Studing in UOL-SIM and self-studying JLPT N2
大学に勉強してて、JLPT N2も勉強中です。
DOTA 2 - 麦藁
** Wishlist **
. drumset
. holiday in Japan once again
. go japan
. continue my drumming
. learn how to shuffle and cwalk!
. wonderful christmas and valentines!
. live in a nice nice house!
. desktop in my room
. good leather wallet
. small carrying bag
. wonderful and sweet gf :p