Wednesday, January 28, 2009
im booking in already and i'm making a last minute blog post
many things happened this cny
somethings maybe good, somethings maybe bad
oh well, things are always this way
happy or sad, i'm going on
no matter how jealous you may want to make me
no matter how isolated you may want to make me
no matter how many guys you may want to flirt with
no matter how pain your heart will be when you think of him
no matter how little sms-es may get from you
i'll never give in
i'll want to give my best and everything to you
that phone chat made me realise how inferior i am to him to you
i want to improve
i want to change
i want you to notice me more than anyone
and lastly,
i want you
i need you
i love you
truely, madly, deeply
kelly (:
i rant my rants @ 11:07 AM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
its hard knowing what is true and what is not
sometimes you feel everything is just so perfect
yet the next moment you feel you've lost that very precious thing
they say stars glow for eternity,
till the sun burns off (which is impossible -.-)
you are like the star
glowing as bright
glowing as long
but dark clouds often cover your light
leaving me in darkness
wandering through the endless void
i cannot find my way out anymore
with you not shining upon me
whenever you're shining above me
i feel safe, and i feel a sense of direction
but you'll only appear when my sky turns grey
i had the most wonderful night one could ever had
blissful in yours and my arms
we hid under the same blanket
we shared the same warmth
as our fingers crossed
thats when i finally realised
my love is complete
someone says the world never stop spinning
someone says every beginning has an end
if this isn't a beginning
i hope there'll be no end
if only i could have the night forever throughout
with you cuddling next to me
thats when i finally will proudly say to everyone
"hey, thats my love for you, and i love her the way i love myself too"
- message from lex :p
a human life is about 75 years
i've spent 20 years and left with 55 years
i spend the next 55 years
holding your hand, and wait for youObsession Indecent - Fixing A Broken HeartThere was nothing to say the day she left
I just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in the rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain, ooh
Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found you there
* You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can`t cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart
Ever could understand what I'm going through
There must be a plan that led me to you
Cause of the hurt just disappears
In every moment you are near, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You make the loneliness easy to bear
* repeat
Soon the rain will stop falling baby
Let's I'll forget the past
'cause here we are at last
* repeat
i rant my rants @ 2:16 PM
Saturday, January 24, 2009
long long time no update
i just came back frm a 12 day in camp torture
with 6 days of Cougar Outfield
it's known that Cougar Coy is one of the most xiong coy
in BMTC and i fucking survived it
though with alot of sweat pain and blood shed
i cannot really describe the details of the camp
cos its confidential but i can ensure
that camp is sibeh de xiong
especially when my platoon lives on the top of the hill -.-
12 fucking long days and i'm finally out here!
i feel stronger, better, faster (cougar motto :x)!
lol! stronger is really indeed!
imagine a load of 20+kg
carrying up a steep hill of 150-200 upslope
every other day?
with the other trainings that dragged through the morning and night
hahas! but in the end
i managed to last through 6 days of hell
and proudly receive the cougar badge!
oh well, thanks guys for all the tags!
i'm still doing well!
meet up soon yeah!
replied tags:
elaine: no la~ will tag and update yeah?
tou: hahas! i miss my clinque too! and i'll relink! ^^
missmel: yoyo xmm mel! yeah ages! how you've been doin?
amiko: assistant manager! yeah! meet up soon and slack at starbucks
or movie and dinner again yeah! text me soon ^^
zizi: camp food pwns! compared to food ration _|_
skelebone: Lol! mintcandies ftw!
jeanette: okays ^^
ryl: erm.. maybe not for blogshop here =)
qiqi: lex miss qiqi too! =D
tou again: HAHA! im out le! after so long!
i rant my rants @ 3:08 PM
Sunday, January 11, 2009
its been donkey years since i last updated
seldom can come online cept the weekends.
many things happened this past few weeks
i definitely feel stronger and fitter while serving in NS
i changed alot too
somewhat not so noisy when outside already
maybe its cos im just too tired to do anything
week after week of training something just keep me going
i just wanna spend my weekends with you
i just wanna see you smile and give me more attention
i know its hard
how outside people have more time with you than me
every week i endured through training
tired and fucked up
wanting to give up
but something kept me motivated
the someone that i always think of
i keep telling myself, 4 more days
3 more days
2 more days
and i'm free, able to have more time with you
able to by chance meet up with you
its something hard to describe how much i want you
i know its impossible at times
but there's only one thing i could do
thats pray that someday you'll love me
just the way i'm loving you
it hurts to see you with some other guys
it hurts to hear you gone
its something i've been waiting for
dumb, do you know how much i've love you?
i hope you really do
because all i want
is just wanna be with you
youevoli
will be gone for 2 weeks straight,
field camp coming up
see you guysAir SupplyI'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know
Chorus:
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone
Chorus
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Chorus(3x)
i rant my rants @ 2:31 PM