work again...
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
hais. back at work again.
so boring. my software still not here
i'm trying to smoke my way thru. dammit la ZZZ
how am i going to do that
nothing much
just glad my friends arnd me found love =)
may love be blessed upon u guys. ^^
and i still hate my hair.
FASTER GROW FASTER GROW!
how i wish
you would love me another time
sleep early, wake up early, be a healthy boy for army :)
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work
Monday, April 23, 2007
wth man. my post gone~
work sucks and i'm blogging in work now
thats how bored i am
hope this publishes this time.
76 more days to go
76 x 10 = 760 more hrs to go
work sucks. i wish i was in school
totally shagged out yesterday
my account no intenet
when i'm supposed to help them remake webby
no programming software at all
wth man~!
anyway, many things happened
and i dun wish to speak abt it
yeah i may be childish, or wadsoever then
but yeah, i guess i've woken up =D
note so self:
- endure till work and FYP ends
- stop lying to myself that everything will be ok
if i smile
- stop believing in things that wont happen
- be a happy man as much as possible
- never trust girls or guys in love too much
with peace, i end =D
oh yeah, in case of anything
me and lele audi couple
oh well. lotsa things happened
blah blah blah
i hate love but...
didn't want to disappoint much
my heart still lives on
but its belonged..
never shed a tear for anyone who won't shed for you
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fuck you
Thursday, April 19, 2007
life has to go on
i finally understand pain
how words and actions can switch in an instant
there are things i cannot say
but to you (you know who you are)
take care and all the best
the world is evil, but players are more evil
i'm 79 on maple but so what
its lost its fun because all my dreams were dashed
audi lost its fun because all my dreams were dashed
i've lost everything
if it weren't for that silent marriage
i wouldn't even have been hurt more than this
this is the first time i vented out everything
but since you chose your path
its yours to take whats on for you
i've been played
i've been thrown aside in 1 day's time
she ran away not even in 24 hrs
and all i want was some care
i'm glad that i'm not dead yet
everything will be okay tomorrow
god bless
i rant my rants @ 3:10 AM
suan le
Monday, April 16, 2007
i really think i'm a stupid someone
why am i still trying to hope for something
when you've already given up everything
i hate lies and i hate my own emotions
you've changed me so much
till i don't know myself already
i'm slowly turning back to my old self without you
why am i still hoping someday
things would not have happened this way
when everyday you're just with them
i'm feeling stupid
but since now i know
i'm at a lost once again
i miss those nights
i miss those sms
i miss those calls
i miss the way you call me
but i guess
you've already let go everything
time
will be my answer this time
konayuki
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decision
Saturday, April 14, 2007
movie with ahgirl and victoria today
meet the robinsons
starting show mickey mouse make ships all these
thought we went wrong cinema =.=
movie was ok la. hahas~
wanted to pee towards the ending
14/03/07 @ 4.45ami guess i made the biggest decision for quite some time
i shant rant about what has happened
but i will not fail to say that
i had beautiful memories
real beautiful memories
that will always be with me no matter where i go
games can make such wonderful things
if there is something i learned from this memories
that is love =)
i hope you do end up eventually with someone
your heart is yearning now
its hard to let everything go
but i'm trying
love will never be the same again
i just hope i wont
regretregretregretregretregret
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love will find a way
thanks for all the great times we had
thanks for everything you gave
thanks for the love you tried
nana =)
viva la forever~
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just a little more
Thursday, April 12, 2007
i'm trying very hard already
to bother lesser
i have not much time left
about 2 or 3 weeks more
i'll be exposed to working life for my SIP
sleeping early, waking up early
will be my timetable soon
i don't want any emotional breakdowns anymore
that was my final straw
i will not be mapling of auditioning
as much as before
since it did not work out before my SIP
i guess having nothing is always better than
having something which isn't working
i'm leaving the world behind
i'm leaving all my troubles and emotions behind
sometimes i really wish none of this had happened
love wasn't there between you and me
but i believe someday somehow
someone will love me just like how i love them
till then, viva la forever~
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what
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
i hereby announce:
- i don't need pity
- i don't need sympathy
- i don't need actions
- i don't need freaks
- i don't need care and concern
- i don't need promises
- i don't need reasons
- i don't need talk cocks
- i don't need love
- i don't need anything
- i just need peace
- i just need what i call truth
a very nice "fuck off" night from me to you
haha i wonder when will things get remembered
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here or not here?
Thursday, April 05, 2007
i'm having quite a funny feeling recently
thanks to xiang. i love you dude
am i here because i'm here physically?
or am i here but not here spritually?
does it even make a difference in your life?
i don't know what to feel again
i feel ignored. everytime
you seem to talk more to him than me nowadays
i tried so hard, but all you see is himi tried all ways to give excuses
tried all ways to stop feeling ignored
but somehow or rather
i only help people
but there are few who helps me
its not a matter of jealousy anymore to me
its a matter of presence and face
i tried so hard, but in the end nothing still changewould there be a difference if i'm gone?
like feeling odd and everything?
or has life take over everyone
that with or without me
everything would be just fine?
you told to not to this and that
but tell me how not to?
i gave everything i could, but its hard trying not to feel ignoredon a brighter note,
i'm officially a Dragon Knight =)
level 73 now.
even simple things like talking,
testimonials, tags, and everything
how often i got the initiative first?i wonder if this 3 months are considered successful
i always said i wanted time alone
but all i need is you
with you by me, knowing your're here to push me on
everything is possible
i live and breathe your air
i want to kiss you life i've kissed no one
i want you by my side
tell me you're here... always....
i really really missed the past
the past where you will come and find me
without even me to try to find you
no matter if any others were in the picturepick me up when i fall
tell me i'm the only one for you
tell me that i won't be ignored no more
tell me your love is true
let me be in your arms
let me love you once again
you never fail to say
dear, i love you
now, everything is him first before me
i really love you, but i just want more attention than himi want to see you so badly
just seeing you cures my 3 days without you
just 1 time a week
i'm satisfied enough
there maybe other guys in your heart now
i may not be as important anymore
i may not be the first one that your mind crosses
when you need to talk
when you need laughter
when you need to pass your time
but just in case that guy is ever busy for you
i want you to know
i'm always at the 2nd (for so as i see now)
waiting to be there
to make your day right once again...
is that something too hard to ask from?
saying i'm not sad will be an april fool's joke
dear, do you feel what i feel?
i just want to be no.1 in your heart
right before everyone =(will the past repeat once more?
for just a day or two?
i really really really miss the past everything
where everything was honeymoon
love me, kill me, hate me, ignore me
choose your poison.
to live, to breathe, to be by you. not just now
but foreverLabels: heartbreaks
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