hais
Friday, March 30, 2007
was it a right choice?
i didn't know right from the start
your words secured me
i thought light shine again
was talking to jon he audi
he's really a great friend to me
sharing what and how i feel to him
why... why...i just feel like blogging everything out
just what i'm thinking and everything
i don't know why i don't know how..
how did you forget what you said to me?there are many people i want to thanks this few days
who really stood by me
who really helped me out and everything
without them, i think i'm just dead
the sms-es you sent me that nighti'm crushedhave you forgotten them all?i'm burnedi really can't face it when i re-read those smsi'm washedits still in my hp. too sweet and real to deleteeverything's falling outmaybe everything is just an illusion back then..i just want to love nicelywill you repeat those lines againcan it be possible?if you ever remember? i don't want to be played anymore =(someone pick me up
i'm already being beaten up already
i tried until i'm tired
i just hope this time passes soon
wish that someday you'll.....
i didn't know even without breakups, love can be so painfulwill you change for me? or will history repeat?
i didn't know my tears could flow just like that either
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bunk
Sunday, March 25, 2007
bunked today
with many people
dear was there
together with jaja meii
though we're only online
muahahaa, we laughed alot
jaja and qiqi bullied by me
jaja tried to fight back
but i'm too godly.
i overkilled =)
tried to play audition later in the night
but i don't know why i lost my mood =/
was thinking about many things
till my concentration went haywire
i love today
and i love dear too =D
together with all the people who hanged out today
though nothing much
but i hope there are improvements
not that weird afterall eh?
time will tell
stomp the yard anyone? =)
and i guess its back to maple
level 70 here i come =)
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just another post
Friday, March 23, 2007
many things happened
and i'm just too tired to say everything out
i'm just glad i still have you by me
but all this thinking i'm having
i don't know its right or wrong
i need more assurance
but the current situation ain't helping
i tried doing many things
to help overcome 'something'
to try to get closer and everything
but i'm tired already
nothing seems to be working
i'm at the dead end now
where am i supposed to go now?
i hope i could do something
the things i'm doing
seriously, i'm getting tired each time
exams drained me out
i just want some warmth
where are you now?
what are you doing now?
we ended with an lol
and i'm all alone...
i hope i could do something
i've already tried
and tried... and tried... and tried... and tried... and tried... and tried...i just need a little more assurance
just a little more security
just a little more try from you
just a little more love
and i'll be on cloud number 9
ilu
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the love i had
Monday, March 19, 2007
26.12.06
the day you said yes
i'll never forget that very moment
though it was something so small
it sparked a big change and happiness
in my life
i swore to you
i'll treasure you and never make you cry
and i hope i did
30.12.06
many years i spend the day before new year
without someone i love dearly
we met for the first time
and almost just like the wind
i fell more deeply in love
you captivated not only my eyes
but my heart even more
we had our first hand lock
our first hug on that day itself
remember when we watched death note?
i'll never remember
how it happened
till the day i die
23.01.07
we had news on audition marriage
we played couple dance 120-140 or just 130
almost everyday.
we trained to get that 5 hearts
but we never got
finally we passed the couple license
and we went on
to match clothings for the valentine's competition
he had fun trying to find the hard kiss move
but when we got it
we played like mad dogs
trying to get it right
sometimes when i think back
i realised how much effort
i put into finding it.
21.01.07
we had our maple marriage!
i remembered it was a sunday
not many people could attend our marraige
but that day,
though virtually
i felt a sudden rush to take care of you
all my life
not virtually but in real life too
you're my everything
our maple life seems much more fun
having our first couple ride to the new world
when we had our money
i waited for you to change job
we pq-ed together
we hunted together
we ks-ed people
all this happenings
i wonder will life bring us back again...
26.01.07
happy 1st month!
though you forgotten about it
at least after some hints
you remembered it
you said you hope there will be more
and i believed it
14.02.07
valentines day
you couldn't make it
because you are sick on that day
the presents i prepared never gone to waste
because we met the next day
when i think back
i wonder ever at one day
will you be wearing the ring
i bought
26.02.07
happy 2nd month!
this month you did not forget
you said you will never break
unless i wanted a break
i wanted to kiss you at that instance
but where were you?
its love thats make me hold on to you
even when your heart is with
another guy
i held on strong
thinking someday i'll make a difference
love was never meant to be
10.03.07
we had our first bunking session!
we sat together as we bunk together
not at the very best at the start
cause we hardly talk
but when you called me dear the first time
i almost died of happiness
from that moment on
i tried everything to be closer with you
we ended the day with a little walk around
before you went home
i wonder when will we bunk again...
19.03.07
our beautiful story ended
with lots of unforgetable memories
your heart is with someone else
we struggled for a long time
you didn't have the heart to break with me
but i remembered you once said
you will never break
unless i wanted to
i wanted to end your suffering
i wanted to see you smile from your heart
i wanted you to love someone you really love
its hard letting go.
but my words came out just so.
i let you go
in exchange for you to love the man you wanted
i have no regrets
just wishing someday
you'll be back
but who knows what will happen
the book for us has closed for the moment
and i hope the author
will be back to continue writing the book
someday of the future
wo hui xuan zhe fang qi ni
shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
i never thought
that love could hurt so much
i promised to be fine
and stay strong after we parted
but i couldn't help
this will go down my book
and stay in my memories
you're the 2nd girl
that made me cried for love
you have just that magic
to make me feel like me
and the you
is none other than
nana
its time to go
and i hope the world will remember me
boy, please treasure her more than i do
think more for her, rather than yourself
you could have won this battle
right from the start. goodbye.... my friends..
ps: remember the darkslain?
i never even hunted the mobs before
its something i shouted 1hr at fm
just to get for you
its ok. the love will still be the same =)
Labels: heart breaks
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hmmm
Saturday, March 17, 2007
if love could wake another mile
i would prefer time to pass that slow
i'm confused right now
what the hell am i supposed to do?
i need answers
if only, my world was brighter
nonetheless, i would blame no one
because i made what i am myself
life have fucked me up
real hard
i guess that's the end?
who knows?
i may just have the last laugh
so many things to say
so many feelings to feel
i guess in my mind now
i only have 3 person to say it to
thanks for being my ear
lex appreciates all your time
<3 you guys really alot =)
i'm just a passer-byLabels: random
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hmm..
Monday, March 12, 2007
i feel love at times..
you have made my life worth living
being with you doesn't just mean mean anything
it means everything
but i wish i could end your suffering
maybe time
is the answer to all questions
wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
shi ying wei wo tai ai ni
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blah
Thursday, March 08, 2007
i wish i could have been more useful
in everyone's life
there's something call 'ability inferiority'
just how much do people put me in their lives
one moment i can be the best friend
of your life
yet the next
i can be let go and gone
so easily with an 'ok' or a 'bye'
many people come to me when they're down
when they need someone for advice
even to get themselves out of boredom
i made an effort to try to maintain
everyone's feeling of the equal standard
maybe its cos i can easily sense people's behaviour change
but when it comes to myself
none will be there to entertain
yeah maybe a few
but its people who i'm not that familar with
am i taken for granted?
yes says zizi.
why can't people take the extra mile
for others when i always take it for them?
maybe i'm someone, just something that is there
in everyone's mind that i can trust and talk to
but isn't someone or somthing
worth helping.
smile i will tell myself
because if i were to frown over every little things,
i would have died of depression.
i no need anything more
i just want more attention from ppl
i think i deserve to.
not just.
"oh you feeling down ah. hao de. dun bother you le"
sometimes i just don't want people to worry
but that doesn't mean i don't want people to care
i may just reply
"ya its ok. just some random emo-ness"
scorpios never tell you their true feelings
the first time round
i guess rumbling its useless
no one reads anyway
i'm just a little pawn thats
just that small in people's life
and i'm not being emo
for god sake.
i'm just being who i want to be
someone who people thinks
i'm worth caring for
if only, i'm more significant in your life..
love me just a little more. just a little more...
Labels: random
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blah
i wish i could have been more useful
in everyone's life
there's something call 'ability inferiority'
just how much do people put me in their lives
one moment i can be the best friend
of your life
yet the next
i can be let go and gone
so easily with an 'ok' or a 'bye'
many people come to me when they're down
when they need someone for advice
even to get themselves out of boredom
i made an effort to try to maintain
everyone's feeling of the equal standard
maybe its cos i can easily sense people's behaviour change
but when it comes to myself
none will be there to entertain
yeah maybe a few
but its people who i'm not that familar with
am i taken for granted?
yes says zizi.
why can't people take the extra mile
for others when i always take it for them?
maybe i'm someone, just something that is there
in everyone's mind that i can trust and talk to
but isn't someone or somthing
worth helping.
smile i will tell myself
because if i were to frown over every little things,
i would have died of depression.
i no need anything more
i just want more attention from ppl
i think i deserve to.
not just.
"oh you feeling down ah. hao de. dun bother you le"
sometimes i just don't want people to worry
but that doesn't mean i don't want people to care
i may just reply
"ya its ok. just some random emo-ness"
scorpios never tell you their true feelings
the first time roundi guess rumbling its useless
no one reads anyway
i'm just a little pawn thats
just that small in people's life
and i'm not being emo
for god sake.
i'm just being who i want to be
someone who people thinks
i'm worth caring for
if only, i'm more significant in your life..
love me just a little more. just a little more...Labels: random
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thoughts
Monday, March 05, 2007
things come and things go
everything moving so fast now
still not used to the holidays
just like how i'm not used to studying
sometimes i really wonder what to trust
you put your heart into it
and wanted the whole world to know
how fortunate you are
but it always seems its hard to answer
when people ask you
how are you
should you say you are happy
because you learned to trust
or should you say you're not
because there's always setback?
life's this way
we've just got to see through it
it may be true
trust have been lost
the feeling of losing something close to you
is like oh so scary..
i just hope things can be changed
but always i think
i'm too inferior and weak
to make a change in someone's life
if only i could give more....
tell me what to do now...
can i expect more?
or is this just another random setback
Out of Breath by Thomas Howard LichtensteinScratchin’ on another door
Waiting for a chance to score some more
“Whatcha’ doin’?”
I can see my life before me
I know that I can’t afford procrastination
I don’t wanna be on an empty road
Full of these empty promises
I’ve got something more to give this universe
Now! I’ve got so much more
And my word is my ammunition
I’ve got something more to give this universe
Start listening to it
I’m out of breath
Fighting back tears
Been waiting for years
For a moment like this
I’m out of breath
And I can’t find the words
It’s chance in a lifetime
I don’t want to miss
Gonna give it my all
‘Till I stand or I fall
Gonna test every limit
Break every wall
‘Cause I want you to know
That I’ll never let go
‘Till get my moment of glory
And I can almost taste it
and i pray for...you loving the way i'm loving you =(
Labels: random
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love
Friday, March 02, 2007
strange things do happens at times
i think i just flunked my law
because the teacher said
it was open book on the day itself
great huh? well, GG! thats all i can say~
right now, i don't know to be happy or whatever emo
it is true the trust must be regained again
and i hope i can do it soone
verynow and then i will keep wonder
is this this? is this that?
quite a hard week for me but i'm glad
its the weekend
tml bunking with dear~ hope good things come
alright now i need to wait for my results
have a super bad feeling. =/
ending here.
i hope love will drop by soon .....
Fixing a Broken Heart by Obssesion IndecentThere was nothing to say the day you left
I just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I hailed a taxi in the rain
Looking for some place to ease the pain, ooh
Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found you there...
* You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can't cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart...mmm
And now I don't understand what I'm going through
Must be a plan that led me to you
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are near, yeah
Just like an answered prayer
You make the loneliness easy to bear
* repeat
Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past
Cause here we are at last...
* repeat
blind side of loveLabels: love
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